my girl is a toddler!

lutfiyah sakeena is now a very mobile baby toddler!walking around like nobody business, carrying n dragging things are her favorites now.she likes to make loud noises when she's bored n needs to get out from carseat, baby chair or anything that confides her from walking. she is also a very cheeky n smart girl, also starting to show signs of tantrums..appetite wise,not fond of anything rice-based food. she loves bread, crackers n 'kopok lekor' like ehemmm yours truly. she adores her soft toys esp simba. she now knows how to hold a pen steadily so much so that whenever she holds any sticks, she'll hold it like holding a pen. ummi n abi surely are proud parents babe :) even seeing your smallest achievements n the new skills u acquired..alhamdulillah..we r your biggest supporters n cheerleaders! go go lutfiyah!

lutfiyah is now feeds on both mother's milk n formula milk..this is a VERY tough decision/sacrifice that i had to make ever.it started when i was assigned to bring few students to a state level camping at Bentong for 3 days 2 nights n therefore, a few weeks before the camping, this hard decision was made. my zawji n i knew that this was the best decision as we did'nt have any other option. mr zawji couldn't come along as his work commitments weren't allow him to do so. so that's about it. anyway,deep inside our heart we knew tht this time will eventually come n this is the high time.we were thankful for the 13 months tht have been given to us to be able to feed lutfiyah exclusively with breastmilk. don't worry much, she is now still feeding on it, taking turns wth formula milk..she will continue until 2 yo insyallah!  

school holiday so far

salam peeps!

alhamdulillah for a 9-day-holiday that all teachers are enjoying right now..well, i hope most of them will be able to enjy it at least although not in the truest sense..as for me n my little family, this time has been pretty occupied as we r not yet reach our homey abode since the school break began..

part 1
we went back to nilai on friday n spent two nights there. kak yu n family join the bandwagon as abg mat had attended a course in Bangi. went for a ridiculously pricey dinner at bagan lalang n we swore not to come to that particular restaurant ever again. the next day, i went for a jog wth mr zawji for the first time ever since lutfiyah was born! kudos to me for breaking the wall n may this be a good start for more workouts n jogs :) then, we went to alamanda for our usual window shopping spree n met asyraf n rai for dinner at secret recipe..earlier on tht day, we attended syazwan's friend wedding at seremban. had a mouth-watering lunch as the food was yummylicious,seriously one of the best lauk kenduri i've ever tasted..mcm2 ada! here comes the best part......we spent a night at sunway tower hotel! yeay,alhamdulillah :) to make things even better, the hotel was just above sunway pyramid shopping centre n we had countless walking here n there browsing things n eating n drinking..phewww!i guess this is what i get from being a girl raised in KL n now living in Kuantan..dh jadi mcm org kelabu mata dpt msk shopping mall balik..deyy,apadahhhhhh! lutfiyah had a good time swimming in the pool n bath tb..hahha! i think she enjoyed the bath tub more than the pool because she feels more secure in the tub n the water is much warmer there..she enjoyed cruising in the water n looked around but abi was not yet ready to let her float on her own, as she'll sip n drink the pool water, so your abi said. we also had a good time watching ice hockey game at the ice rink n it was a good show. the players gotta hv a very sharp hand-eye coordination n eagle eyes to play the game. we were so amazed by the superb skills that were shown by the players.

part 2
we've had heard the news long before but we can just pray for the best. mak nong was in a critical condition as the cancerous virus plus the lung infection had attacked the whole body. there were also some internal bleeding n the doctors had done their best but nothing more could be done to bring it to normal again. we believe in Allah's plan n surely He is the best planner. mak nong had been sent home on Wednesday afternoon n alhamdulillah we managed to reached trganu at 2 a.m. on the same day. we could only prayed n recited yassin hoping for a good ending for her. Allah is the Almighty, mak nong had peacefully left all of us yesterday afternoon, leavng behind all of us who r still surviving n seeking Allah's blessings as we may not know our endings yet. may u rest in peace mak nong n we love u so much. we hope that Allah will protect u with rahmah n rahim. u r one kind n caring soul n u'll be missed....al-fatihah.....

she is now 11

our precious lil lutfiyah is now 11 months old today (9/2). happy birthday sayang comel ummi! we love u with all our heart..to the deepest of unconditional love tht we cld ever give u..we hope tht u will continue to be one strong, active, smart, persistent, cheerful, brave, well-mannered solehah girl tht we always adore n forever will..

u r now can stand on ur two feet withour holding on to smthng but it's just for 3 sec. but, nowadays u r not interested to show off ur skill tht much. so we thought tht by ur 1 yr old birthday, u might nt be able to walk just yet..u r now hv a stable sleeping pattern n u eat a lot too!u love playing n moving around the hse. ur fav playing area is under the dining table n u also like to crawl inside/outside the room. ur current passion is to smash the cabinets n drawers in the kitchen while ummi is cooking.

alhamdulillah, as for now, u r still surviving on ummi's milk. i will continue to my best ability to provide u the golden liquid untill u r 2, if Allah wills,insyallah! I will do anything for u luthie, anything...

HAPPY 11th month BIRTHDAY LUTFIYAH SAKEENA.we love u!

the new school

Alhamdulillah, it has been a month since the first day I stepped foot in the new school. This move from the previous school is very much look forward and I am really happy to give my service to the new school. everyday is a breeze as

Firstly: I am not rushing and get panic attack everytime I woke up at 6 a.m. and blaming self for not waking up earlier. I even dragged mr zawji into my own problem and my mood has been badly ruined as early as I woke up,realizing tht I won't be able to reach school before 7.30 a.m. Owh, my life was miserable just because of this little thing which is totally unnecessary.

Secondly: I am able to cook more often when I got back home from school which I do like doing so much. Tho I am not a good cook (mind u), I feel contented everytime I got to prepare simple and humble dishes that can be eaten by all. Most of the time I cook noodles, pasta, spaghetti, cucur ikan bilis and sandwiches. I will rotate the menu every now and then because abah n sayang don't like heavy meals at night, well, most of the time.

Thirdly: And the most important thing, I got to spend more time with baby lutfiyah and gives her all the attention tht she deserves. I am not easily tired as I am still fresh by 10 p.m. which is so hard to do before.

I will ramble about the new school, what I feel and how it has been treating me for the first month. Let me tell you that when Allah gives u something, He surely takes something from you as a replacement of the bountiful blessings that He has given. He always knows better and truly said, hijrah is always for the better. In my case, I've been more productive in my work and oh boy, I've been given quite a lot of responsibilities to be carried out this year. Am I complaining? No. Am I feel burdened? Partly yes. Am I feel bullied as a new teacher? Somehow, I do. Do I want to do my very best when given responsibilities? Sure, I do. I am well aware that these might not be much for some ppl. I might have shown some exaggerations here. But please, let me do this.

Here's the lists of tasks tht are needed to be faithfully and effectively taken care of.

1) Class teacher of 5 Ibu Nafis (such a bunch of nice students)
2) Teaches form 3 and form 5 classes (I never teach exam classes for real, well, I had replaced some tchrs for few months)
3) Guru disiplin (like seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?)
4) Setiausaha Badan Ketua Kelas ( how I wish I wasn't the one who got this post)
5) Setiausaha PIBG for 2013/2015 (I freaked out, got panick attack, muka hijau when I know about this post...how on earth that the administrators thought that I am suit for this post in the first place. On a positive note, I am the chosen one and they see the potential in me and they believe in my ability to carry out such a BIG responsibility. How can I not thank them..huhuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~ Ya Allah, only u can ease every problems, only u can wash away all the negative thoughts, only u can make rainy days disappear and brings out a beautiful rainbow. Only u can help me and to U I seek forgiveness and peace. Oh Allah, only u knows the best for me..Ameen~


Keeping my faith#stay strong#finding the silver lining among the clouds#summon all the positive vibes#syukur banyak2#

catch the bad wolf already :)

assalamualaikum wbth n hola peeps,

The most awaiting event that i've been dreaming for many weeks, has become a reality. we managed to go books retail theraphy! ohhh yeahhhhhhhhhh..better late than never they say and truly said it was all worth it. once i stepped my foot into the main hall, i was ecstatic, like a girl who is in a candy shop. my eyes beaming with joy and i can't stop smiling. we did a quick glance at all the sections, hoping to stop at any that interest us. And we began our journey in the books land at the cookery station..hah! we grabbed a few books and zawji was so enthused to see so many high quality and cheap-prized books that he felt like having them all..it was so enjoyable to see him like that which i find quite rare and amused at the same time. he was busy looking and sorting books (fiction, photography, calculus! etc). we took our pleasure with all the books as we reached there at 10 a.m. as people hadn't crowding the hall yet. alhamdulillah. so,yeah. we went separate ways later on and i hurriedly headed to picture books and children sections in search of books for lil lutfiyah. i managed to find books for her that had later on been sorted by zawji as some weren't that necessary. yes, i picked so many books that i didn't knw how to choose the best..so i let him do the job. while zawji queued up to pay the books, i went up to the stationery section to buy some stationeries that cost me around 200 bucks which comprised of a casio 'label it'. some pens, marker pens, some glues and post-it notes..the stationeries were all discounted for mostly 20% for each item. beside stationeries. i also got myself books on english teaching materials (duhh), world atlas book, cook books and a guide on handling crying and colic babies (ok,mommy mode on). After about three hours, we headed home feeling contented and literate..hahahh!

thank you BIG BAD WOLF for having us..will definitely see u again!owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

2nd

this entry is dedicated to our 2nd anniversary as husband n wife on 23/10/2010..the day that we promised each other to cherish this marriage,to embrace each day wth warmth and happiness n to stay strong together come what may...

so, to that, happy 2nd anniversary mr zawji! thank u for being there always for me,everytime when i need u, in bright and glommy days, in joyous and upsetting mood. i am who i am now because of u..i've learned so many things from this marriage n i could say tht somehow u hv shaped/changed my perspectives on many things which is for the better,i would say..thank you for being our protecter, for being a superdaddy to our lil munchkin, for being my best friend, for being my confidante and football mate, for putting up with my emotions,desires and my fickled-minded self and most importantly for always being around to support me to be a better person..even whenever i feel down like such a complete dork, u constantly believe tht i am this wonderful and great person tht u know (hahh!)..see,i nvr thank u enough sayang.

thank u for all the moral/emotional support that u've given me..it means a world, honestly.i do hope tht we could together improve ourselves n be awesome parents to our kids..so, here is to many more years togetherrrrrrrr!

single-handed mom

i've survived (so far) being a single-handed mom to my darling lutfiyah this school holiday..as much as i enjoy being with her and watch her grow every single moment, coping with a 8 month baby who is full of energy with unpredictable emotions can sometimes require us to use our physical and mental skills to the best. i used to be a person who is veryy, veryy patient. patient was my middle name until i found that it isn't the case when i've gained my new title, especially when the lil one was so cranky at night that she needs more hugs, nursing and even a playmate..owh yes.that's her new skill which we just discovered last night at 4 a.m. bring it on baby! oh my, it was so hillarious watching her trying to pull and toss us around  in the bed just to play with her n we surrender, half-awaked trying to play with her..and we take turns of course..lutfiyah only continued sleeping at about 10-ish and woke up around 12. Now she is asleep again at 5.15 p.m. and we'll see how long is she taking her nap..lutfiyah can be fully recharged aftr taking her 10 minutes power nap to be back in action!