catch the bad wolf already :)

assalamualaikum wbth n hola peeps,

The most awaiting event that i've been dreaming for many weeks, has become a reality. we managed to go books retail theraphy! ohhh yeahhhhhhhhhh..better late than never they say and truly said it was all worth it. once i stepped my foot into the main hall, i was ecstatic, like a girl who is in a candy shop. my eyes beaming with joy and i can't stop smiling. we did a quick glance at all the sections, hoping to stop at any that interest us. And we began our journey in the books land at the cookery station..hah! we grabbed a few books and zawji was so enthused to see so many high quality and cheap-prized books that he felt like having them all..it was so enjoyable to see him like that which i find quite rare and amused at the same time. he was busy looking and sorting books (fiction, photography, calculus! etc). we took our pleasure with all the books as we reached there at 10 a.m. as people hadn't crowding the hall yet. alhamdulillah. so,yeah. we went separate ways later on and i hurriedly headed to picture books and children sections in search of books for lil lutfiyah. i managed to find books for her that had later on been sorted by zawji as some weren't that necessary. yes, i picked so many books that i didn't knw how to choose the best..so i let him do the job. while zawji queued up to pay the books, i went up to the stationery section to buy some stationeries that cost me around 200 bucks which comprised of a casio 'label it'. some pens, marker pens, some glues and post-it notes..the stationeries were all discounted for mostly 20% for each item. beside stationeries. i also got myself books on english teaching materials (duhh), world atlas book, cook books and a guide on handling crying and colic babies (ok,mommy mode on). After about three hours, we headed home feeling contented and literate..hahahh!

thank you BIG BAD WOLF for having us..will definitely see u again!owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

2nd

this entry is dedicated to our 2nd anniversary as husband n wife on 23/10/2010..the day that we promised each other to cherish this marriage,to embrace each day wth warmth and happiness n to stay strong together come what may...

so, to that, happy 2nd anniversary mr zawji! thank u for being there always for me,everytime when i need u, in bright and glommy days, in joyous and upsetting mood. i am who i am now because of u..i've learned so many things from this marriage n i could say tht somehow u hv shaped/changed my perspectives on many things which is for the better,i would say..thank you for being our protecter, for being a superdaddy to our lil munchkin, for being my best friend, for being my confidante and football mate, for putting up with my emotions,desires and my fickled-minded self and most importantly for always being around to support me to be a better person..even whenever i feel down like such a complete dork, u constantly believe tht i am this wonderful and great person tht u know (hahh!)..see,i nvr thank u enough sayang.

thank u for all the moral/emotional support that u've given me..it means a world, honestly.i do hope tht we could together improve ourselves n be awesome parents to our kids..so, here is to many more years togetherrrrrrrr!

single-handed mom

i've survived (so far) being a single-handed mom to my darling lutfiyah this school holiday..as much as i enjoy being with her and watch her grow every single moment, coping with a 8 month baby who is full of energy with unpredictable emotions can sometimes require us to use our physical and mental skills to the best. i used to be a person who is veryy, veryy patient. patient was my middle name until i found that it isn't the case when i've gained my new title, especially when the lil one was so cranky at night that she needs more hugs, nursing and even a playmate..owh yes.that's her new skill which we just discovered last night at 4 a.m. bring it on baby! oh my, it was so hillarious watching her trying to pull and toss us around  in the bed just to play with her n we surrender, half-awaked trying to play with her..and we take turns of course..lutfiyah only continued sleeping at about 10-ish and woke up around 12. Now she is asleep again at 5.15 p.m. and we'll see how long is she taking her nap..lutfiyah can be fully recharged aftr taking her 10 minutes power nap to be back in action!

lutfiyah sakeena sudah 8 bulan

alhamdulillah,our lil princess is now 8 mos 3 days n what she has become n achieved has been a miracle..she has passed through a milestone n reaching more each passing days..i remember tht she has started to 'mengensot' n 'menyulur' since 6 mos n started to crawl n pandai2 nk berpaut n berdiri sndri during 7 mos..skg dh pandai ampu lulut ntk berdiri berpaut dkt sofa..now,it's time to put on watchful eyes over this lil munchkin.we nvr knw wht she is up to..kjap2 tgk dh bwh meja n bwh kerusi..n the newly found mobility has made our heart skipped not only one but many times by the bumps n falls..sometimes,she acted tough like nothing happened n at times she'll cried her heart out..haiyooo~budak kecik yg sgttttttt active,banyak tenaga,bijak n manja..nonetheless,we'll let her explore the environment..learn from your senses,from the falls and whatnot..

she nvr failes to brightens our days n put smiles on our face..as ppl say children are our treasures n our entertainer..to quote wht wan had said during our visit to her's last saturday.'ustaz kata anak2 ni penghibur hati,'..well,true tht wan. lutiyah is now 7 kg+ the lst time we chcked whn she was 7+..ikut bulan berat die which is normal..she is not tht bam bam since she possess a small frame body but tok abah said tht her body is 'kemas' tht means she is solid..whatever tht means la kn..she got curly hair like both yours truly ltfiyah..so,thanks to ummi n abi for the dominant genes ya..hihii..abi has always said tht he wl truly understand u if one day whn u r a grown up n hating your own hair..hahahah..poor hair..ummi on the other hand objected tht because i think tht ur curly n volumned hair is cute n beautifullll..comel pe rambut curly2 kan..

she now eats as often as she wants n tht means small portions at a time..kdg2 rsa mkn byk btol lutfiyah ni..n tht comes with a lot of poops too..hihii~good digestion system ppl say..until now, she still survive on porridge wth pumpkin,carrot n potato..n also a big fan of banana,cherry tomatoes n watermelon..hihii..good girl mkn sayur n buah byk..don't be like abi who doesn't like veges n ummi who malas to eat fruit..i had tried to give her finger food but she doesn't reach tht 'princer stage'(i shld be right) n i take it as a signal tht she's not ready for tht just yet..she doesn't want to drink water from the bottle so we tried the syringe since she passed tht the last time..tu pn minum sket n ikut mood jgk..i wonder why we didn't try sippy-cup yet..will definitely give it a try once we buy it.

she likes to babble by herself (ikut mood jgk) n mulut riuh suara kuat mcm cikgu tok abah kata..tok ma kata mcm wan since wan ckp non-stop..cikgu jgk ke lutfiyah?tho it runs in the veins already,but pretty please pursue wth somethng else..rmai sgt dh educator..she has now developed a sign of stranger anxiety n ummi cannot-be-out-of-my-sight..sgtla manja dgn ummi skg more like balas dendam sbb slalu working days we barely had quality time together because ummi's day starts as early as 5.30 a.m. and only reach home at about 4p.m.but,it's ok..ummi suka..it's just tht abi sometimes is quite jealous for your unfair treatment towards him..kekeee~sleeping time is quite consistent n ummi barely had problems to settle u down..yeah,u hd ur times too but it's controllable..oh yes,u still need ur rounds of zikir n nursery rhymes occasionally before goes into ur la la land.as per tonight,bouncer is quite handy to get u to sleep. afterall, i'm grateful tht u don't need the  craddle..(out of words..lupa la apa proper name die)..alhamdulillah :) for tht.

ok, till then..oh ya.i'm on holiday mood now as the school holiday has just began..i need to write more during this school hol n to transfer my old multiply acc to this blogger site..need to do it pronto!wth zawji's help it is..org tak brape celik IT la katakan...n on top of tht,one truly importnt thing tht is I need to send off my resume to ayah su asap..Plan B is on baby!insyallah,i'll story mory ltr on once it can be talked about..hehaaa..

there's always a first time for everything...

yess,my cutie pie had recently down from fever for the first time at the age of 7 months...to be exact 7 mos 2 wks.many had told me tht lutfiyah had a strong immunization as she only got ths ltr at her age.well,alhamdulillah for the wnderful precious breast milk tht protect n give her the best tht she cld ever have as food :) praying hard tht i can continue breastfeeding her for as long as i can..ameen~

she was quite weak n slightly warm on 17th oct aftr she got back frm her nanny's hse. we were quite worried as she nvr looked so vegetable like tht..checked the temp n it ws read in farenht..great! so,none of us knew how to convert it to celcius..looked up for the conversion n it was 37+..so,alhmdlh,we were not tht worried n felt tht the fever won't last tht long. we got lutfiyah checked at the nearest clinic just for our peace of mind altho we knw tht there's nothing serious n we were right tht the doc said she looked just fine n active..however, her throat n tonsil were swollen n reddish a bit n tht cld made her feeling a little bit uncomfrtable..tht night, lutfiyah slept soundly as usual..

the next day,the body still felt slightly warm..tht night,she woke up every 2-3 hrs crying,maybe due to the sore throat.we gave her the med n i kept on breastfed her. at about 5 a.m., we woke up frm her crying, thnkng tht it was her usual feeding time.aftr two rounds of feeding, she still cried n it ws louder thn her normal crying. whn i touched her skin,it was quite hot n i told zawji bout it..minutes ltr,she fidgeted n zawji jumped out frm the bed telling me tht ths didn't look okay..he told me to dress up n we rushed to HTAA. otw, she puked on me n once again at the hsptl. she was really weak tht i cldn't bear seeing her like tht. we went to see the doc n alhmdlh,nothng serious n wht we afraid of didn't happen..it wasn't epilepsy n the doc said tht the fidgeting mvmnts my be caused by her feeling discomfort..we had sleepless nights since then..we monitored her temp n gave her the med every 4 hrs. we also damped her hair with air asam jawa continuously n it worked wonders bcos the heat lessen gradually.. 

today (21/10- sunday), she is getting well n back in action! alhmdllh,pls recover well soon lutfiyah..we knw tht u r one strong little girl~

 

the labor..*pending post*

it hs been a while...keeping up wth my cutie pie lutfiyah sakeena evrydy..seems like 24hrs is nt enough..everydy is a blessing n full wth surprises n laughter n lotsa love..the little,cute face nvr fail to bring smiles to my face..

i hv to start writing back..i wnt to talk about the labor process..yes,the experience i'll nvr forget for the rest of my life..ppl call it labor for very good reasons,ohh yessss..till then..this post is a reminder for myself to keep on writing n tht i owe myself some polishing in writing skills..russstyyyyyy man!

***********************and here goes the story****************************

it was my daily check-up wth prof gynae on tht day (8th March 2012). i hv planned some questions to ask him about my soon-to-be labour mainly about our plan to meet our lil darling earlier..so,we were wondering if it is possible n feasible and also the after effects if the procedure is done and in what way will it affect me n my lil precious...and not to my surprise, he said 'yes, why not!'. ohh yeahh, he is one ever positive man n nothing is a problem to him n tht's why we never doubt any of his actions and decisions..from his explanation, i can tell tht the procedure is just a normal one tht is done for early labour which is to induce labour using some kind of drugs n the contraction wl be doubled from normal labour. this is because the drugs wl trigger contractions faster n as u woman knows, it does come wth severe pain and the rest is history. Little did i know that the most frightful moment is yet to come. my gynae said tht the procedure can only be done if he is able to check the condition of my cervix n then to determine whether it is ready for labour. he inserted two fingers through my cervix and i jumped a bit n my heart skipped. it was tough to do because i was not relax at all..yeah,i was so embarassed n not able to calm myself, too shocked i guess..the most icky moment in my life.period.

i had a pillow talk wth mak that night n she asked whether i am that sure wth my decisions to go through early labour n i said of course because i need people (read: u,mak) to take care of me during my first week of confinement..as a young mother who r clueless of how to deal wth postpartum hormones n what more to deal wth a delicate lil one, a strong support group (read: my family) is what i need to face the most crucial time in my life tht i'm yet to experience

and so the day has come for me to face the battle..i was asked to check-in at the hospital so that my gynae could get me checked and briefed me about the procedure. thanks to ayah who was able to company me to the hospital until zawji arrived. we arrived around 10.30 a.m..i changed to the hospital attire and was attached to the CTG machine for contraction monitoring purposes. zawji arrived at noon as well as siti..they were there with me until mak, kak yu and her children joined us..thank goodness we decided to get a private room as it was packed wth my family..what more could i asked at tht time than to be with all of them,my ever supportive backbones..and so, i had series of minor contractions which i couldn't feel at all. my prof gynae only got in at about 3 p.m. and briefed me about the procedure.blablabla and inserted two giant-sized pills into my cervix to get the contractions going and oh boyyy! it really got me after an hour. it felt tht my backbone is kinda prickly and the 'zappy' feel of the contractions were at times, unbearable. my zawji, who was ever so accomodating and caring managed to walk me on the aisle outside the ward so that the labour process could be easier, as per advised by prof gynae..i managed to do three rounds of walking and climbing up and down the stairs while carrying tremendous pain.

Finally, the frequent contractions came with a gush of blood and water,indicating that the water had broken. after a plea of help and endless 'help me!' to the nurses, i was brought to the labour room around 8.45 p.m. i was too miserable and focus on the pain that i was being bitter to others. yes, i was bitter,said zawji..i didn't want to get strapped with the CTG machine and i refused to be consoled..hohoooo..blame the hormones and the pain! at the labour room, i was left alone while the nurses were preparing things for my delivery..i was screaming for help because i could feel that the baby was really cominggg. the nurses came to check my condition and to their surprise it was already 8 cm! they let me inhale some kind of gas to ease the pain and let me tell you, it did wonders! the pain was all gone and i'm in wonderland....then, i had to wait for prof gynae to reach hospital (he was at home at that time because he predicted that i won't be delivering until midnight or the next morning). when he arrived, the nurses asked me to take deep breaths and i was told to release the gas inhalation. they taught me how to push the baby out and after a few pushes, my lil one was savely arrived. alhamdulillah! but, the drama didn't end there..lutfiyah apparently got strangled with the umbilical cord and they had to quickly cut it to prevent her from getting drown. zawji was so impressed with the job well done by the gynae.well, he was a prof btw..lutfiyah was given a pat at the back for being a strong strong girl by the gynae. He wasn't expecting tht because the CTG reading was normal and for that, u r one tough baby girl and u hv proven us right in this 8 months! good on you darling and we are your proud parents ever :)

her milestones

At the age for 46 days,there's a lot tht Lutfiyah has achieved..well,at least wht most baby of hr age wld..she has strted to coo,paid lot more attention whn we talk to her..I love it whn she cries for help[means I need someone to scoop me up] n immediately stop wailing whn she heard my voice..hehee..she also responded by raising her eyebrows[abi noticed ths] she also has vry strong legs[kicking really well n hard too!]...she enjoys sounds,things tht rattles,shapes n colourful things..she respons well to all these..she also likes being on upside down position but only whn we hold her..mandi masih x suke sbb gayat n she'll cry n yell..owh yee,berdiri sgt2 suka,as if it soothes her..duduk yes but only when tok ma hold her..org laen agk fail nk wt cmtu.. she likes to grab things like fingers..it is really cute n calming whn she did tht..owhright,the most hillarious thing she did is grabbing her own hair n the next thng u knw tht she'll cry smpai nk pecah umah! Hahahhahahaaa..ape la bdak kecik ni kan..

N the most impressive developmemt is tht she is able to bring herself to sleep without umi or abi cuddles her around the house..yelaaa,mse ni sgt2 la mengantuk kan..tht's y she cn jst be on her own n the nxt second she's alrdy in la la land..good2,trosk
n usaha!

after quite some time..

Lst sunday was my official 'merdeka' day n what do u do when u alrdy got ur freedom?jalan2 of cos! N we've decided to make quite a long journey for the first time [for lutfiyah] to kuantan..

The journy took us about 4-5 hrs to reach kuntan,plus stop for nature call n diaper change..we deprtd frm nilai round 6.30 n safely arrvd at 11.00p.m.alhmdlh,lutfiyah behved well in the car seat,only when she's asleep..she needs some cuddles n hugs once she woke up n she also got very distractrd by the bumpy roads..biasalaa,lalu 'jalan lama' n there's nothng tht we cld do..mak thought tht she wl like the bumpy ride but unfortunately, it is not to hr liking..overall,she's a good girl n i also managed to gt some sleeps the car..how relaxing! Thnk u lutfiyah for nt giving umi hard time ths time..we'll definitely bring u jln2 again ltr as a reward fr ur good performance..hihii~

She also slept well on the night we arrved untill nw..she only wakes up for feeding once or twice at night [night for lutfiyah means aftr 1a.m.] albeit the hardship to gt her to sleep before 1 a.m.

Owhh,i forgot to mention tht tok ma,tok ba n acu who miss lutfiyah ever so dearly..terngiang2 suara lutfiyah mengamuk n nanges kt tinge diorg..tok ma even checked on u on the dy we arrved tau..so as tok abah n nek wan..u'r definitely the gem in th family dear!

42 days!

my bibiburp (new nickname for lutfiyah) is now 42 days and this marks my 42 days in confinement.yehaaaa..i'll be officially 'off' confinement by sunday.lutfiyah had gotten prolonged jaundice but alhamdulillah it was all cleared whn she was 30+days.my journey as a young mother(perlu ke young?)has been wonderful..though in the first few wks i wld say tht it was such an emotional turmoil n i was so overwhelmed wth motherly duties..i nvr regret nor complaint bout it but it ws all new experience n as a first timer,evythng has the ups n downs..nyhowww,i've toughend up n now able to nurse lutfyh single hnd..ahahh [of cos wth the support frm th helpful nursing pillow]
n as all new mums out thre who pln to exclusively breastfeed their sweethearts,i need to focus in doing so... do my best n be persistent n plss try not to whine n feel burden by all ths..breastmilk is lutfiyah's utmost nutritionl food tht she cld ever gt at ths age..i wnt to gve her the vry best tho my nipple cracked [freakingggg painnnn],smtms i do also feel hopeless n helpless whn i'm too exhausted aftr attndng to her needs..

Having said tht,thank u Allah fr ths opportunity..to be able to look at th innocent face n hvng countless great mommy moments esp when we stare at each othrs eyes r the joy of being a mummy..it's so special n sacred n beautiful..hopefully I cn breastfeed her until 6 months n insyallah,up till 2 yrs old..ease my journey o Allah..akan berusaha semampu boleh![breastpump baruuuuin mind!]ngeh2 :p



Umi loves lutfiyah sakeena sooo muchhh..nothng wl beat mine!

Photo Album 2012-03-29

unconditional love

It is nothing like mother's love to his daughter/son..the epitome of love n the highest level of love tht ppl cn receive in ths world.aftr our love to The Creator n His Messenger(Pbuh).
it is oftn tht ppl call it unconditional love bcoz it is,literally speaking,love without condition..all ur attention,feelings,heart,affection n compassion r poured to ur chldren,regardless hw thy behave,(cranky,grumpy,non- stop wailing n decided nt to sleep the whole night)u'll still love thm..unconditionally :) hebatnye sifat ar-rahman ar-rahim yg Allah pinjmkn pada kita kn...no matter hw hard it may seem,wht more to hv first-hand experience,the love wl defeat all th frustration,th bad feelings tht smtms r there whn u hv to endure relentless n unstoppable crying at 2a.m...

Children r God's greatest gift:).u r the chosen one Nada..i'm a proud umi to my Lutfiyah Sakeena..umi wl do her vry best to acoomodate to ur needs n be ur friend n no 1 umi to u..now,i wld like to dedicate the song the number for me by Maher Zain to u..kekekeee..


Umi hearts u vry muchhhhhhh

a long hiatus....it's already 37 weeks!

Assalamualaikum wbth..praise be to Allah SWT...


Yeaahhhh..it's game on from now on..as my prof gynae said,'it could be anytime soon..people nowadays tend to deliver earlier then the due date'..well, actually, I am hoping tht I could deliver early as the whole family wl be available during school holiday.This is really a big deal for me as I just couldn't imagine myself at home just wth ayah n mr hubby during the first week of confinement.I need more experienced people (and motherly) to look at me and the baby.To have a helper for a month for Rm3k is just too much for both of us.what more I just couldn't stand being around strangrs at my own home..huhuu..I'm just hoping tht I can 'brpantang' on my own wth mak,ayah,siti n maybe a masseur. Thus, with all the reasons above, I will most probably choose to get induce for early labour,whichis exactly on my 38 weeks, friday,9 march..I've discussed ths matter wth prof gynae n he said tht my condition n the baby's condition r jst fine for early delivery as we r both healthy n ready for the battle..I askd him about the after effect of being induced n he said the contraction pain wld be double frm the ordinary labour/contraction.I didn't hv any idea wht I hv got myself into n jst wishing tht whatever pain tht i'll experience wl nt b as bad as i may seem. Positive thinking! Whatever it is,i'll go through it,wth little pain or double or even triple pain..rabbi yassir wala tu'assir YA ALLAH...

Ya Allah,I humbly ask ur love n kindness tp mke ths journy easy n smooth fr me n the baby for only U can make it happens.ameen YaRabb~

Will update once it is all over[the delivery n mybe berpantang]..less pain,painful or very painful?for u I will my baby.insyallah :)

See ya ltr!